Dare To Ask Talk And News About Our Differences By PHILLIP MILANO
Question
What is the hardest thing to deal with as a gay individual?
C.D., Johnson City, Tenn.
Replies
Probably the sudden death of a loved one. However, many people have a misconception that being gay is all we are. I’m sure straight people don’t dwell on their heterosexuality (“Do these pants make me look straight?;” “I wonder if people at work know I’m straight?;” “Wow, she’s hot! I wonder if she’s straight?”). I believe people who think we lead exotic, secret gay lives don’t think they know any of us. We’re standing right in front of you. We go to work, mow the lawn, take the kids to soccer, throw in a load of laundry and sleep in on Saturdays. We are exactly like you.
FreedaBee, 42, lesbian, Orange County, Calif.
The hardest thing to deal with is how little people know. I still come across people who think I chose my orientation, and it infuriates me.
Jordan, 15, gay, Jacksonville
Not being able to walk down the street hand in hand with my girlfriend, the love of my life, without getting the glares, hearing the whispers and getting the occasional comments. I would love to be able to give my girlfriend a gentle kiss while we are in a store or parking lot, but people look at us like we have lobsters crawling out of our ears.
Mary, 25, lesbian, Springfield, Vt.
Expert says
Being gay? Not a problem, says Angelo Pezzote, a New York author and psychotherapist who’s worked with hundreds of gay men and women and runs askangelo.com.
Being OK with being gay? Different story.
“The hardest thing overall for gay people that I treat, those with substance abuse, safe sex, relationship or anxiety problems, is self-acceptance. The shame that comes from the ‘gay stigma’ – that gay men are not real men, for example – causes a sense of shame.”
Those who don’t address the issue set themselves up for lower self-esteem, amid all of life’s other struggles, sometimes triggering symptoms such as depression or alcohol abuse, he said.
“The issue of ‘immorality’ gets drilled into us in the overall culture,” said Pezzote, who is gay. “And the issue becomes ‘Am I lovable the way I am?’ ”
For those gays beyond such issues, he said, the daily challenge often boils down to whether to mute their orientation and behaviors in public to avoid sneers, or losing a job, or even violent reactions – especially when a large chunk of Americans still believe being gay is unacceptable.
Pezzote said some even feel pressure to show others they adhere to societal “norms.” He used as an example Lance Bass of ‘N Sync, who came out last year yet told People magazine he was a “straight-acting gay” – a “typical guy” who loved to “watch football and drink beer.”
“Whenever we tone down part of who we are to be more acceptable, to conform, we are stamping out a part of us,” Pezzote said. “We just need to be who we are: people who are gay.”