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I have been trying to answer this question for myself and my mother for some time now. She can’t for the life of her understand why I choose to Act on my attraction to women, although she acknowledges that it’s possible to have such ‘sinful desires.’ Are you asking the same? Never mind, I’ll saymy piece anyways. I didn’t choose to need emotional and physical intimacy with women. (note other messages!) In my youth I tried all the tricks: I have tried to hide it, tried to deny it, become a workaholic to ignore it, tried dating a few really nice guys. The price I paid in self esteem and confidence, in personal integrity was not worth the results. What a relief to finally say what I really think, and feel, and need. And it’s really nice to hear someone else, who has gone through that same struggle, to say the same. It’s not nice to hear that if only I chose to try harder, I could be straight, since I’ve tried plenty hard. I couldn’t. I I ever had a choice, it came down whether I would keep lying to myself or to tell myself (and others) the truth. Anyways, would you ever lie to your mother?

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Name : alf, Gender : F, Sexual Orientation : Lesbian, Age : 27, City : Somerville, State : MA, Country : United States, Occupation : student/ graphic designer, Education level : Over 4 Years of College, Social class : Middle class, 

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