[Mark]

After years of web surfing, I have never come close to finding a bi male story with a crossing over history even remotely like mine. I am desperate to find others like myself. I lived straight until I was 22 when I had my first bi experience with a close straight friend. I never had an attraction to men, nor did I ever fantasize about men before this. The thought of two men having sex was repulsive to me. I will only briefly describe my history. At age 22, a friend and I were changing clothes after a swim. At that age auto erections were hard to control after a brisk swim. I changed clothes quickly ,concealing myself, but he noticed my semi erection and jokingly remarked, ‘….let it get bigger…’. I was embarrassed. He began to talk about penis sizes, …. In two minutes, I felt comfortable ….and minutes later we were in the living room in our robes taking about sex with girls while his clothes dried. An hour of girl sex talk left me extremely horny and his dare led to another. My primordial urges led me to briefly giving going down on him for 10 seconds, as he did to me for 4 seconds. Neither climaxed. Months pasted, we never spoke of it. Over the next 10 years, I dated, got married, and had infrequent oral sex with my old friend. My friend is straight and rarely performed oral sex. It is I that initiates oral sex when he visits. The important point about my story is this; I never had a precedent, conscious or unconscious, of being attracted to men. I am not attracted to men. Handsome men neither arouse me nor capture my attention. In other bi male stories of the first time, the male always acknowledged a feeling of attraction to other males as a precondition for their first encounter. This was not my case. My crossing over was an instant event, and is not accompanied by an attraction to the male sex in general. I desire to have sex with women, including intimacy and orgasm. My strongest sexual memories are of my ex-wife; I’m a closet bi and seldom practice bi sex; I have a girlfriend; I do not flirt with men, nor behave in any bisexual manner; my bi side is fixated on performing oral sex on a man. To satisfy the Freudian thinkers out there, my father was largely absent in my life. In summary, a single unexpected single event became my crossing over point, and I have no attraction to men. Is there anyone else that was straight one minute and bi the next? Millions of bi stories, but no one like me. Do they exist?

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Name : Mark, Gender : M, Sexual Orientation : Bisexual, Race : White/Caucasian, Age : 40+, City : Kansas City, State : MO, Country : United States, Education level : 4 Years of College, Social class : Middle class, 

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