[Helen]

Katie, personally I would tell my story over and over until someone listens, whether it be a medical doctor, mental therapists, family, friends or me. The pain you feel is not uncommon, but what is uncommon is the feeling that suicide is the only answer and acting upon it. At one time in my life, my world had gotten smaller and smaller. Just enough energy to pull myself from my bed to join the workforce each day, my responsible side. But when I arrived home the blinds remain closed and my separation from my friends and family became further and further. My depression disrupted my sleep, my eating habits changed and it caused me to gain weight rapidly, which sent me into a deeper state of depression. I was so low that when I reached up I touched bottom. My depression was caused by the death of my mother. I felt I no longer belonged to anyone. Prior to this I was vibrant and happy, with the usual bouts of depression we all experience, and knowing who I was yesterday and reflecting upon it while yearning for who I once was helped me to pull myself up and out. I came to terms with who I was prior to my mother’s death, and in a sense I was reborn. A new self. I spoke to anyone who would listen, and when I tired them I told another what plagued my heart and spirit. Whatever it is that is hindering your spirit, be it a chemical imbalance, an incident such as my mother’s death or the like (even the onset of your menstrual cycle can cause imbalances), how you perceive yourself, etc. there is definitely help. There is joy in life, but along with the joy there is unhappiness. There is someone to help you light your candle so you do not have to sit in the darkness anymore. I will listen.

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Name : Helen, Gender : F, City : Seattle, State : WA, Country : United States, 

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